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[fanoperator]

Okay. Then why is it an issue? If I think you're a dumb jerk and you know you're a dumb jerk.

One of my dearest friends is a dumb jerk. Maybe more than one, depending on how we're defining dumb and jerk.

[buttbaby]

I never said it was an issue! You just went and assumed it.

[fanoperator]

...

You know what? I don't think that's true.

If we're agreed that it's fine that you're a dumb jerk, then that's not the problem. But you said you were bothered by me thinking that I'm better than you. If that's something other than me thinking that you're dumb and a jerk, then what is it that bothers you so much about it?

[buttbaby]

You not seeing me as a full person.

[fanoperator]

We'd met for, what, a whole ten minutes before we started getting on each other's nerves? It's impossible to have seen you as a full person at that point. Does anyone ever see anyone else as a full person, or do we only ever see the parts of them that are most relevant to us in particular? [Huaisang doesn't often get the urge to throw philosophy at people, but he can't figure out what Chris wants from him, since apparently 'go our own ways' isn't an option and Huaisang can't become an entirely different person.]

You're accusing me of having assumed things, but you keep telling me what my own opinions are, that I look down on you and I don't see you as a full person. Sounds like you've been assuming a lot of what's going on inside my head.

[buttbaby]

Maybe you've got a point.

It just feels weird, fucking someone who dislikes you.

[fanoperator]

Well, we certainly don't need to fuck again.

[buttbaby]

So you still dislike me?

[fanoperator]

Hm. Yes. 'Sweet' has gotten outweighed again by 'pushy' and 'demanding'.

But sure, if you want to keep going. I originally disliked you because you told me your hobby is mugging people if they act in a way that makes them a 'bad guy', which behaviors include, ironically, mugging people. I disapprove of your arbitrary justice. I dislike that you've given yourself the authority to convict and punish random strangers. Who, further ironically, you certainly aren't seeing as 'full people' before you decide to assault and rob them.

[buttbaby]

Hey, I'm allowed to be a hypocrite. Everyone does it!

[fanoperator]

Absolutely true on both counts.

But it's the beating people up for your hypocrisy that I really don't like. If you want to beat people up for a hobby, go to a boxing gym. If you want to feel morally superior to other people, join a church.

Beating people up on the street in order to feel morally superior is just despicable.

[buttbaby]

I don't beat people up in street to feel morally superior. Not anymore. I only intervene when somebody's in danger: that's how I met Hands. He was getting mugged.

And I only took their money when I was new and didn't have any, but you're right, that was wrong.

[Just, an acceptable wrong, as far as he's concerned.]

[fanoperator]

I imagine Hands is paying you well.

So it's ... no longer a hobby? The beating or the robbing?

[buttbaby]

Nope.

[fanoperator]

Glad to hear it.

[buttbaby]

I was kind of a piece of shit for a long time.

I'm trying not to be, now.

[fanoperator]

what inspired the change?

[buttbaby]

I killed someone I shouldn't have. Got incapacitated for five months. My life got a giant overhaul.

[fanoperator]

when we first met, why did you talk about all that like it was current? why was that one of the first things you wanted me to know about you, this version of you that you don’t want to be anymore?

[buttbaby]

Bad habit? And also I'm pretty bad at not thinking before I speak sometimes.

[fanoperator]

Ok. Well. Maybe if you want me to not dislike you, we could try again with who you really are. Or who you want to be.

[buttbaby]

I'm Chris Smith, and I'm kind of a fuckup. I want to be a more gentle and open person.

[fanoperator]

ok come over and we’ll drink and start again

[buttbaby]

Now?

[fanoperator]

now